Overpowered

Others struggle with lack of faith in God, and I struggle with a lack of faith in myself. If one really wanted to, they could say that maybe they were the same thing. 

I've said that I am going to make a turning point so many times, and nothing has come of it I am beginning to think I won't be able to. I am just going to continue living half a life, and die some unaccomplished person no one really remembers doing much. 

I want to be more action than talk. I want to end the day with tangible work done.

I want to get out of this rut I've been in for god knows how long. I want to live in the moment, fully and completely. I want to be everything I say I am in the various online profiles I keep, and any autobiography I would write. 

And I am going to do something I haven't done in a very very long time. 

I am going to pray. I do not know to who or what god, but I am going to pray.