you taught me how it can feel like love

I never think I fully grasped the full breadth of the word love and what it can possibly mean until tonight. Everything it can possibly embody, and everything it can create. And I realized what a terrible awful thing the word can be as well. How utterly horridly confusing... 

Damn you James and Claire Fraser. 

Damn you Diana Gabaldon. 

 Anyone who says they love you should be willing to go to the ends of the goddamn earth for you. More than that. To hell and back, with a bullet and thorn in their side...

This is the first time in a long time, all I truly want is to be held. That is all. 

- Maria Van Gogh